Revelations around the capacity to enjoy
I can relate to this. It has been quite a tough year for us as a family after I was made redundant earlier in the year and our security has felt uncertain as I've struggled to get back to work in a really tough market. I've been hard on myself, and have tended to suppress the things I would usually get great enjoyment from - trivial things like enjoying making music, or socialising - there's a sense of guilt around enjoying myself while I have financial concerns to address. My guess is a lot of people can relate to that guilt - isn't it strange, we have this most incredible experience of existence to appreciate and enjoy, yet we construct conditions around whether we can live it to its fullest.
Bravo Scott. Thanks. So on point for me. Although I have let go of some of the old beliefs and conditioning around enjoyment this post provided me some terrific reminders!
Love your thought process, and the identifying of "shitty concepts". The process of identifying and naming the lies we believe is so helpful.
Thank you for this well framed and vulnerable post. It definitely resonates and I am finding similar patterns in my own path to healing and learning. You gave me some added dimensions to think through and I’m grateful for it.
It’s funny how much synchronicity I get reading your work, I had a similar reflection and wrote about work/play and the hidden beliefs that were undermining it for me. I hope it’s helpful.