Understanding the forces driving the creative process and inner reality of creators
I love the example of intention and why it matters so much, and the impact it has on your consciousness. It reminds me when I first started writing on Quora - for free, because I loved it - and then the writing I did for my startup Carrus, which always felt like pulling teeth. Very different motivations indeed.
Two more things come to mind based on what you wrote:
1) The paradox of intention - on not trying too hard. There's this feeling about things being effortless when it comes from a place of integrity and/or higher consciousness. This applies to everything including relationships. The more you need a relationship at all costs, the more likely you are to overextend and become inauthentic and clingy.
2) The Rogerian idea of "becoming" vs. "arriving." Carl Rogers wrote about this in his book On Becoming a Person. It's the idea that we're trying to reach a static, fixed state, but because that's an illusion we're better off seeing ourselves as constantly in flux. He says, “It means that a person is a fluid process, not a fixed and static entity; a flowing river of change, not a block of solid material; a continually changing constellation of potentialities, not a fixed quantity of traits.”
One thing I've wondered about recently is whether these ideas of effortless trying and becoming/flowing can be experienced by anyone regardless of their work situation (by accountants and CEOS and janitors alike), or whether they always need to get out of these situations and restart/reboot into a job/calling that "makes their heart sing." In your example, I wonder if in your post-Kundalini awakening you could have somehow continued on with your startup but with the new perspective?
Love this. I too was once scared of letting go and trusting the process. But it’s all I know how to do now.
"To access this state, one must let go of the desire to control and relinquish the grasping so that whatever wants to emerge from consciousness can emerge." This is absolutely spot-on and is the only "strategy" I use to write. In fact, I call the process "emergence"; I make room for whatever arises from within after providing only a simple prompt. I may have a topic I wish to write about but that is all the further input I give. And it's fascinating to see what arises. In a way, it's like giving a prompt to AI. Our subconsciousness is so powerful and knowing. Sorry to geek out, I love seeing others grasping the same concepts and coming to the same conclusions. ;)