If you're going through it, you're not alone
The body keeps the score as they say and our day to day existence creates endless opportunities to add to the score. My own catharsis process has been a practice of extended fasting, 5 - 7 days, four times a year to coincide with the solstices/equinoxes. The physical process of allowing my body to heal and repair seems to have a refreshing and rejuvenating effect on my mind too, without any special intent, it just seems like a natural pause of mind and body that brings things to the surface and helps me to integrate my experiences.
It's very encouraging to read what you wrote about feeling ''wasted days'' and Saturdays not going to plan when a healing process takes over. It really helps me identify, understand and accept similar patterns in my life. Thank you!
I see how striving and being able to crush it is not necessarily more ''advanced'', spiritually or humanly, than letting go of plans and letting healing happen while cultivating inner stillness, even though it's hard on my ego to accept it.
I still want to be striving and I still catch myself mentally valuing it, because a big part of me still perceives this attitude as my primary source of safety, even though through meditation I've seen how this is not fundamentally stable or real safety. So, reading someone else go through these changes and reflexions really helps. :)
This article came to me just at the right time. 🙏
Scott, This post is filled with opportunities to reflect. Thank you. D
So well put.
Its a great description of what most of my adult life as been like after I began the healing process. In fact, I have learned to schedule a day in to just sit on the couch and revoer.
I also witnessed a partner go through an extreme kundalini crisis, and it is no fun. That energy gets turned on and it continues burning all the dross until its done. Thanks for sharing your experience.
Hey Scott, this is awesome. I really appreciate your candid honesty and openness and the way you describe your healing process (and the way it can sometimes take over in a way). It’s an interesting tension... between taking care of life’s necessities and doing the healing work... then again maybe the healing work is a necessity of life.
It’s also been an interesting part of some conversations I’ve been having with a few coaching clients (“Does this ‘healing work ‘ever end? What does it look like on the other side?).
It reminds me a bit of an experience I had that I shared in this piece: https://heartseed.substack.com/p/20246793_healing-intergenerational-patterns-while-putting-zephyr-to-bed
And once again, thank you!
Wonderful! So much detail; this was very helpful & resonated with me.